Jocelyn Flores was a friend of X who suffered from depression and committed suicide in May 2017, while staying with him in Florida for a photoshoot. I'll be feelin' pain, I'll be feelin' pain just to hold on Havin' conversations 'bout my haste decisionsīeen fucked up since the couple months they had a nigga locked up I've been trippin' 'bout some things, can't changeīut niggas been excited 'bout the grave I'm diggin' I'm in pain, wanna put ten shots in my brain I've been stuck thinking 'bout her, I can't hold on ( I'll be feeling) I don't wanna pretend we're something, we're nothing Water is also representative of cleansing and change.I've been trapped in my mind, girl, just holding on Halsey also has a butterfly tattoo on her arm. The butterfly is also the symbol of the fictional House of Spera which is a rival family in the story-line of hopeless fountain kingdom. The butterfly image appears through the hopeless fountain kingdom era and was included in the cover art for her single “Bad at Love”. This theme is further re-enforced with the butterfly in bright orange (representing the present) and the background in more muted, dark colors (representing the past). As a butterfly metamorphizes from a caterpillar, Ashley has used her past hurt to change into the person she is today.
The butterfly is more representative of current Ashley – depicting growth and life that has come from past hurt. In honor of the song hitting #1 on the Billboard Hot 100, Halsey released a remix of the track featuring Juice WRLD.Īlthough the cover art was never officially explained by Halsey, it can likely be interpreted as the juxtaposition of life and death.ĭrawing from the song’s themes the skull on the cover art likely symbolizes past hurt and the death of past relationships or even a past version of herself she’s shedding. In that interview, Halsey stated that the song was not going to be part of a future album, and described it as a “stand-alone record ” however, on 13 September 2019, “Without Me” was revealed to be track 9 on her third studio album Manic. The song premiered on Zane Lowe’s “World Record” on Beats 1 Radio, and was followed by an interview with the artist about “Without Me”. It’s about my life and my relationship that the world has watched so closely… It’s just me. It’s the most raw thing I’ve ever made… Here, I have this record where it’s just me, no character. The track is different to her earlier conceptual records Badlands and hopeless fountain kingdom, due to the fact there was no role to play: This song dives into the personal feelings of Halsey after being a very public relationship. The track is directed at her ex G-Eazy after she was “cheated on in front of the entire world, like, a billion times.” “Without Me” is the first new song released by Halsey since her 2017 album, hopeless fountain kingdom.
I had to go and find out from them (Oh-woah) You don't have to say just what you did (What you did) Then I took yours and made 'em mine (Mine) Just runnin' from the demons in your mind Gave love 'bout a hundred tries (Hundred tries)
I don't know why (I don't know why, yeah, yeah) I don't know why (Yeah, I don't know why) Name in the sky, does it ever get lonely? You know I'm the one who put you up there I was afraid to leave you on your own (Ooh)Īnd if they laugh, then fuck 'em all (All)įeelin' so high, but too far away to hold me Took it so far to keep you close (Keep you close)